Club Q Update #62 - I hear sirens

Here’s another song that I don’t think would ever see the light of day if it weren’t for Club Q and you lovely people.

I wrote this at a time I was becoming increasingly disillusioned with being a musician. I was on the tail end of a rough patch career-wise and I was wondering what following this path was really costing me. I was starting to see friends of mine from school do the things normal respectable people do; get a good job, get married, buy a house, have kids. I was jealous, and also scared and feeling guilty that I may not be able to provide those things for Amber. In short, I wanted all of those things, but felt like I was falling behind. Like a child who refused to grow up, clinging on desperately to a pipe dream.

Sometimes this line of work gets you down. Really down. But you are handed little flashes of beauty that remind you why you do it. Since I wrote this song I learned to be a little more positive, and certainly more hard working than I used to be. I still tend to be pretty hard on myself.

I wrote and recorded this song in the first apartment Amber and I had together, and played all the instruments. My studio then was basically a converted walk-in closet off the living room.

I like this song as a stamp in time as to how I felt then.